PATHETIC LOVE STORY; I dropped my heart into a big hole.

Girls, if you guys read this sad-stupid-tragic-love-story of a pathethic-crazy-little-girl, I hope you all will get some learning from this. I have a message for you guys, don’t ever try this at home and please don’t laugh, because actually this is not a funny story or a happy ending fairytale, this is a sad story.
Long long time ago but not very long as this opening statement, 4 years ago, exactly on september 2011, I was one of the high school’s smartest student. I sat with my best friends forever together never have better than this, we were talking something fun and we were at the same voice of laugh but I did it louder. And then, suddenly outside the door, I saw him. He was the most handsome-awesome-and wonderful around his friends at that time. I didn’t know who is he, where on this earth he comes from, and why his smile is brighter than others. I also didn’t know what was my heart feels, if I’m not mistaken, people called it as love at the first sight. I won’t believe it (anymore) but I did.
After a few days, I had known almost everything about him. It was so amazing after I met this guy. My days becomes so colourful, brighter, optimisful, better than just having friends and families. Yippeeey. It was like, everyday I go to school and I always love to see that face around me. You know it’s exactly like the whole sky was blue and white and the field became so green when my heart beats faster and I couldn’t stop smiling, that was happiness at that time. Month by month I thought about him, I spent some part of my high school life for him. Even until he graduated from school, about 2 years after the day I met him, I was still thinking about him. His shadow was bravely appear in my smart mind, and sometimes moving back and forth such it’s became stupid and crazy.
Till the third year, everything happened when I’m in love with him. I don’t know exactly how was his love story but indeed when I love him, maybe he got 4 to 5 ex-girlfriends in that 3 years, but I still love the same guy. In he’s birthday, I always stay awake until late night to be the first girl who congratulate his special day. There’s too much thing that I’ve done for him and he may never wanna know this. The biggest thing is when I was graduated from highschool, it was a year ago, I was selected to continue my study to the same place with him. From that moment, I believe that he is my destiny, and I’m surely thought that I will be his queen. And yes, he knew that I was his junior in high school, and we were chatting and talking and so on, this is was the peak of happiness. Until in the end, I saw he was so happy too, with his new girl-friend....
And today after that day, I choose to leave him, to forget him, to erase all about him from my memory. Today is the very special day, his twentieth birthday, I congratulate him, I said everything to show my feeling. And the last, the hardest part is goodbye.

Yes guys, actually falling in love isn’t really beautiful and nice as I thought. Love gives us hurt and happiness, but most of them are brokenheart. Moreover, I am the one who always see his face, I’m the only one who loves and feels the light in the dark of life because of his smile, I’m the one who looking for him, the one who always want to know how he’s doing. Unrequited love. That’s what actually happened to me. So sad, I did everything only on a reason, for him, but he never realized what I did. But now, I’m done. I choose to wake up from this sweet dream because I just realize that this nice sweet and perfect dream will never come true. Goodbye.

8/17/18
Note for myself: maybe God want to make you realize that falling in love with a guy is not a right thing to do, moreover you were still a student. That is why, life taught you that love may come in the right time, for the right person, and on the right place.
Peace.

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