Accepting, letting go, healed.

Never had I ever thought that I will be in this state of mind.

I wish I could be stronger.

I listened to one “NAK podcast” yesterday, about HIKMAH. 

Which can have so many meanings depending on the situation. It’s a wisdom, learnings, the book (Qur’an), the lesson, messages. It will be in any things happen for us living in this world (Ust. NAK, 2023). 

I also listened to a podcast or was it from a youtube? — I forget where is this from but here what it says, “All things that happen are neutral, 

what makes you extremely sad or happy are things —could be from past or future, mostly past— that you relate to that one single thing happening at the present time.

That is what creates your emotion/feelings”

“For example, today is just another ordinary day of yours, you wake up (but still late), that was fine, supposed to be something just fine.

But your thought makes you feel so bad

Because you think “Why is this happening again”. Then you relate it to something bad that happened because you wake up late in the morning. You feel bad, you feel exhausted.”

Why is this related to accepting, letting go, and healing?

Because in this process, you should think 

“Everything is neutral, normal”

Friends get married and you still do whatever you do, 

Someone you loved so much leave you,

you don’t get what you want, 

Your goals not yet achieved, 

anything bothers you… is just normal.

You might think you’ve failed, but no, you’re just, not there yet. And, yes, there must be a lesson behind it. 

Allah knows better. 

All you have to do is just follow the flow,

You know what is important,

You know what should be prioritised first at the moment, and the rest of your life.

First is Allah (God) & your deen, and by that means you prioritise your spiritual needs, yourself.

Why yourself? Because I think (just a personal view), what is mean is by loving yourself first, is that, you want to be closer to Allah, to understand what you (as a human) really mean for this world. Also your physical & mental health, your basic needs (eating, living, studying, working).

Second, your parent, siblings, family, and anyone you love (re: that loves you back). 

Don’t stick to anyone who doesn’t understand you, who doesn’t care about you, etc, etc. Because there are those people that are close to you, really close, which means you are not alone. You can always reach out when you need them. They might also need you. 

Third, just be a kind person on earth, to anyone or anything. Keep this in mind, you’ll learn about forgiving. You’ll learn that nothing is yours to think, to put so much effort into something you can’t have or just, not yet.

Lastly, “It will get better. When you’re focusing more on yourself (re: those things you prioritise), focus on healing, in the first few months can be painful. Not an easy process, definitely. But, there will be a turning point, when you realize that you deserve all good things too. Don’t be afraid of feeling grief/sad, don’t attach yourself on those feelings. Sometimes, you need to go through the pain, to become more mature, independent, wiser, and stronger.” — from another podcast, again, I forgot to put the title/speaker :). 

Love,

Una.